The Clarkson’s Farm presenter Jeremy Clarkson has talked about his fear of death and growing old once again in a recent column as he writes about how he’ll die “howling in a corner”. He admits that while he isn’t accepting death, he’s surprised at how relaxed other people are.
“In a few years’ time, after I succumb to a terrible disease,” the presenter writes. “No one is going to say that I fought to the bitter end bravely or stoically or with much in the way of dignity.
“Because I fear I’ll spend my final days howling, sobbing and quivering in a corner.
“I’ll be telling all the nurses that it’s not fair, and the doctors that they’ve got to invent a cure.”
He continued, telling a story of a girl he met who had come to terms with her eventual passing, adding that he’d been around a lot of people in their “last moments”.
“I’m always staggered by how sanguine they are,” he wrote. “How accepting of their fate.”
He went on to write about a girl who became pregnant after being diagnosed with cancer:
“Despite the gut-wrenching sadness of the moment, she smiled and was calm,” he wrote.
Thinking back to his father’s passing, he joked that he died peacefully without “thrashing”. Instead, he left with a final “geronimo”. This was to make his family laugh once more time.
But Jeremy believes his time “cannot be that far away”, but instead of hiding from life, he’ll “go to the pub” before admitting that actually, death doesn’t scare him as it should.
